I have never had a good relationship with exercise and any form of physical activity.
As a child, I was never allowed to really run around with other kids, and my games were more of the creative, indoors type. I always dreaded Physical Education classes-- I was no good at sports, and had two left feet that didn't do me any good at those different folk dances. Not only that, I hated having people watch you look awkward, get sweaty, and basically make a fool of yourself for an hour thrice a week.
Almost two decades later, I find that I haven't outgrown this. I don't want to go to the gym because it bores me. I don't want to workout in my room because I'm deathly afraid of doing things wrong and injuring myself. I don't want to join any classes because they remind me of PE classes all over again, yet when I attempt to do something solitary like walking, I still feel like people are watching and whispering about every move I make.
And while my head knows that exercise (or any form of physical activity, for that matter) is important, my body somehow doesn't want to follow. It has helped somewhat to be handling Women's Health Philippines for work, as the magazine really espouses that women should find a form of activity that they enjoy doing so that they will always be motivated to exercise. But I realize that there just isn't any physical activity I enjoy doing.
One of these days, I will have to wrap my head around the idea that there are just some things that you have to do, even if every fiber of your being is screaming "NO!!!" :(
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Maybe you need someone to exercise with you. Having someone join you may make you forget that people are looking at you. Don't mind the other people. Most probably, they're not even looking at you and criticizing how you do your thing.
ReplyDeleteAlso, maybe it's time that you shift your perspective on exercise from the negative to the positive. Maybe part of the reason why you think you hate it so much is because you are reminded of all the bad things you associate with it. But that's all in the past, hanee. Forget about it. :)
That's true rin, at least my focus will be on just me and my companion.
ReplyDeleteMel is actually offering that I try working out at the gym in their village. Wala masyadong tao, it will be just him and me, and the owner is willing to show me how to work the equipment. I'm thinking about it na rin, at least it'll be quality time for us too. That would be the positive thing, I guess. :)
Actually, maybe it's best if you don't think of it AT ALL as exercise. Think of it as quality time with Melbert. Obviously, you don't consider spending time with him as a chore, and adapting this mindset might make working out more appealing to you.
ReplyDeleteYou don't consciously think that you're exercising when you walk to and from your car when you go to work, right? So think of it just like any other activity, like yun nga, spending time with Melbert. :)